so stressed up.. it's at this point of time tt i feel like giving everything up.. dun wish to feel pressurize.. but yea.. it jus comes.. i cant help it.. so yea.. all ard me.. warning.. dun agitate me at this current crucial moment.. before i flares up..exam are making me crazy... can someone tell me wtf is the diff between simple factory and singleton.. mugging it for more than an hour.. discussion with joreen doesnt help.. cos we cant farking understand it.. i would prefer spending time doing all the dance paperworks rather than all these shit.. and i do realise i have lotsa shit to clear for dance.. after my exams.. but yea.. i m looking forward.. which i dunno y..

a little present can exchange for someone's smile.. seeing her smiling ear to ear.. i share the happiness too.. hee..

alice bdae coming.. i know.. she have been reminding me.. and even wrote in my organizer.. wahaha.. cutie sweetie.. no worries.. i know what i wanan get for u as a present.. 100 rolls of toilet paper.. it can last u for the whole entire year.. cool? it's jus so realistic and practical can.. blea..

s2006 uniform










the printed on flower.. singapore orchid..



can i declare that i have smoothly cleared 1/3 of my exams.. wahahahahaha... sense my joy? exam period totally sucks.. everyone has to mug over books and notes.. and tt is when everyone becomes so emotionally unstable.. people starts to flare up easily.. starts to raise their voice at others.. and by doing so.. unintentionally hurting others when u urself dun even know.. so pls guys.. control.. and keep a calm mind at all times k.. it's jus not the time to spoil frenship now.. we r coming to e end of the poly life.. so pls.. yea?

me and belley went to try on our s2006 uniform todae.. hilarious.. super ugly can.. look like some toilet cleaner and darren can stil mock as us saying tt suntec toilet cleaners' uniform is something liddat de.. and so obvious it's a made in china thingy.. haha.. omg.. i feel like laughing at myself when i was in tt uniform looking at the mirror.. i will be hardworking in near future to wake up earlier and change it on jus before reporting for work.. and not wear tt uniform and parade on my way to work.. haha..

my baby is sad todae.. :( haiz.. baby.. dun b sad k.. muz smile always.. haha.. does it reminds of s2006 slogan? making 4 million people smile.. haha.. but no.. i onli wanna make my baby smile.. hee.. miss him like hell lots can.. haven been seeing him since tues until today... and tomolo cant c him too.. :( missing him... cant wait for sunday to come.. cant wait for exam to end.. cant wait to spend all my time with him.. i can' wait.. i can't wait.. can time jus pass faster..

{pei'er <3 bran}

i reali went chinatown with mommy todae.. had so much food.. i'm getting fat day by day.. :( has lotsa dim sum todae.. and a short shopping trip.. got myself a buckle to do a belt.. and some beads too.. saw many nice clothes but i dun have the time to try cos i m rushing back to school to meet belley for studies.. yes studies.. i do study.. somehow quite last minute though.. but i m glad that i m willing to get down to some serious studying..

i spent the whole afternoon with belley studying and chatting with quite some stuffs.. we watched one of wu zhong xian shows for a period of like 15 minutes and i was totally laughing my heads off.. had a good time with her :) we headed home at ard 6pm.. and then i realised i left my pbl2 report in her club room.. i sucks to core can.. how can i b so forgetful and the exam is like tomolo.. feel like slapping my face hard and ask myself to wake up..

trying of s2006 uniform tomolo.. woohoo.. heard from jocelyn tt there will be a singapore orchid somewhere.. and it better dun b ugly i hope.. i wanna b proud wearing tt uniform.. not being so paiseh bout tt uniform.. i told darren i will b going after my papers.. which is near 5.. but belle say mayb we jus spent a short time and go early in e morning.. quite true also.. by e time i end my exam.. i will be brain dead.. my brain juice all used up.. haha..

to tt blog stalker of mine.. hu claims to have a disgusting name call nick aka isolation... pls.. make urself disappear from my blog.. no one welcums u here for ur info.. or mayb u r retard enuff not to sense it.. and hello.. get this clear.. i m someone hu have a bf.. stop being irritating.. i love my bf k.. i shall calm myself down and not make my blood boil bcos of stupid and disgusting ppl like u.. i feel so turn off by u.. do u realise? in case u dont.. i m telling u now.. or u prefer being thick skin and stay here for all my frens to humiliate u.. if u enjoy being humiliate.. pls.. jus go on with wat nonsense u r up to k.. i cant farking b bothered.. and i love the way my xingan and stone talks bout u.. they rox.. best sisters man.. u gals know me like jus too well.. lalala.. haha..

when studying gets so boring.. i will end up here.. giving myself a short break before getting back to it again.. my mind is full of encryption thingy.. public key encryption.. hashing.. digital cert.. PKI.. everything.. but i guess so far so good.. i understand what i m studying and tt saves alot of trouble cos i dun need to memorise and work on my brain cells..

went for reggae yesterdae night with qiao joan and carryn.. damn fun la.. i never went for gin's reggae class before.. although tt's something i wanted to like one semester ago.. but for tues.. i m always down with major proj.. and yes.. i muz know how to prioritise.. so yah.. i never get to go until yesterdae.. and got to learn all the hips movement.. although the basics movements.. can be quite erm.. disgusting? joan describes it farking someone.. yah.. something liddat.. haha.. hilarious.. but yea.. i enjoyed it totalli.. if i have e time.. i would stil wanna go for WKM in future.. i love WKM..

had dinner with baby.. and joan.. enjoyed it totalli.. haha.. joan took funny videos during the meal.. madam ostrich should have jus join us and add in to the fun.. there's this freaking sissy guy sitting opp of us.. keep staring at baby.. i feel like telling tt guy.. hello.. my baby belongs to me.. and he is straight.. stop staring at him.. disgusting fellow.. and wat's with the black nail polish.. omg.. and the way he file his nails and paint his nails.. i tink it's more professional than me la.. omg.. what is the world coming to.. y r there such ppl ard.. buai ta han..

mommy is trying to persuade me to go chinatown with her and sis and bro tomolo for breakfast.. haha.. told her my exams on fri le.. but she stil insist i shld go.. haha. cos she know i wont wake up early to study also.. but mommy.. do u realise.. i m trying to make excuse not to wake up early.. haha.. in e end.. i told her.. if i go.. i wanna go shop for beads.. and she say ok.. i choose and she will pay for me.. hee.. nice mommy.. love her.. hope can be back home by 1.. and get myself down to books again.. like again..

sat was a funny day.. belle cutlet alice zirong jocelyn yuenlong and i went for s2006 training course.. i think they r splurging la.. they held the briefing at oriental hotel's ballroom.. like wow.. haha.. we went for some sort of amazing race game.. we skipped 2 stations.. but afterall i tink it's kinda ok.. i guess we enjoyed the kampong glam trip most.. haha.. lunch provided.. it's kfc meal.. wow.. we learnt what is shi sha.. we did not smoke it though.. it's was allocated that me belle alice cutlet and one more design school guy.. forgot his name.. we r in charge of swissotel the stamford.. raffles hotel.. and raffles plaze hotel..

starting from sunday all the way to mon afternoon was a nightmare.. a nightmare tt i would nvr wanna think about again.. y are there such selfish people and hyprocrite on earth.. and by being so last minute.. r u trying to play mind games with us.. do u realise the seriousness of this proj? come on.. i feel like slapping him and wake him up.. telling him this is our major proj.. if u wanna do it individual.. be a solo-ist.. do it urself man.. when i shout at u.. u dun bloody come and act blur in front of me man.. opening ur mouth wide.. machiam u dunno what's going on.. eh.. i believe u dunno lei.. i reali believe can!!! feel like stuffing all ur nose shit into ur mouth.. disgusting asshole.. ur family sell fish one izzit? muz b la.. u muz b e one selling ikan bilis rite.. i'm seriously irritated.. and pissed by ur attitude.. handed in report like one hour late.. marked as late submission.. and when u come.. u know our main focus is report.. y e fuck u volunteer to do the powerpoint slide.. and when u say u wanna cover the technical aspect.. and y didnt u do it in e end.. and u were there happily waiting for the gals to print the report and bind it.. which is suria and me.. come on.. we r a group.. not ur slave.. and this is a group thing can.. farker.. no sense of urgency.. can u make urself useful not? a little contribution? dun give me the impression tt u r a free rider can.. prove me wrong.. but well.. after today i tink i m right and i shall always b right.. tt's e impression u give.. and wat's with ur nice tie.. formal presentation with tie.. printed with mini toons.. bugs bunny and seven dwarf.. u look fantastically cool can.. like wat bran says.. solid guy..yesterdae say wear white everyone was agreeable to tt.. and in e end.. u wore grey.. hello.. r u colour blind? or u think u can look outstanding by doing tt.. if u tink so.. u r wrong.. in my eyes.. u r jus a piece of shit.. and u shall always remain as one..and dun act clever by presenting functions tt r NOT done by u.. trial feedback function done by u meh.. registration and subscription page done by u meh.. act clever.. tell me what it doesnt flow.. so u chenge.. and u change.. dunno how to inform beforehand ar.. or u wanna tell me we didnt give u time to inform.. u r jus a bloody asshole can.. if u sense something dun flow.. then voice out la.. wat is ur mouth use for? as a prop for u to act blur izzit? or izzit for u to stuff nose shit? and our presentation.. i m reali pissed off.. when function last minute cant run.. u as the integrater shld try and figure out e error and not reply me with a ans saying u dunno and walk off.. wtf is in ur mind.. and y some of the pages doesnt even have a background.. u cant even ans me.. pls dun go overboard and dun test my patience.. if anyone of us fails.. u shall not get away with it too.. farker.. reali farker man.. in case u dun sense it.. yes i m referring to u.. and i wanna express how irritated i m.. if u r a normal human.. u shld b able to sense my farked up and constipated expression jus now during the presentation.. my heels almost landed on ur face.. u r jus so darn lucky tt i cant even b bothered with u.. it's a waste of my breath talking to an asshole.. it's jus my luck man..can u feel the anger boling in me right now?

good thing is i stil have bran with me.. after my proj yesterdae.. i met up with him to have a simple dinner.. and i guess tt's the only i can destress.. he is always my listening ear.. no matter what happens to me.. i jus feel like telling him.. and yes.. he is always there.. thanks lots baby.. i appreciate it lots.. hee..and i always get something from him whenever my mood is down.. haha.. dinosaurs with hand and legs.. head and tails.. wahaha..

whole day stressing myself on mp and bruchure.. asking myself.. when will all these shit finish.. like when man.. cant wait for all these to finish.. i know i m very grumpy.. keep complaining these few days.. but it is reali very fustrating.. when things cant b done.. my mood will b like fark..

went for li sheng jie concert today.. i was one of the event helper.. helping with ushering and queue control.. saw alot of familiar faces.. which some i cant b bothered to greet.. cos afterall.. they are jus some hi-bye frens.. li sheng jie songs not tt bad though.. but he is not nice la.. he keep flirting with the gals.. jus to make everyone scream and shout at him.. like wtf.. wat kind of attention u wan man? and wat impression u wanna leave us with? tt u r full of charm? or in a notorious way.. u r flirtatious? know what he did? he held a gal's hands hu happen to sit in e front row.. and sang half the song.. jus holding her hands.. trying hard to look as if he is very into tt song.. looking emotional.. and then after tt hugged her tight.. and get all his fans screaming.. and helpers were like looking at one another giving the "WTF" face.. haha.. and he went round parading.. and do stunts like asking people to take out their phone in replacement of light sticks and wave to his tune.. like wad eva.. tt's definitely something i'll never do..waste my hp batt onli.. towards e end of the concert.. he even ask all his fans to go down and b close distance with him.. wat's ur prob man.. this sent 1200 people rushing down to centre stage like mad people.. he jus gives me a feeling he is trying to hard.. and does he realise by doing so, he is causing trouble? it makes it look like a chaos to us.. and we have to come in to stop the crowd from getting too near.. and alvin ting was being pushed like nobody's business.. after the concert.. SU ppl.. were stil trying to demo.. how he threw the posters to his fans.. how he sings.. and how he wanna get the crowd attention.. haha.. hilarious.. afterall the SU ppl hu came down were great ppl man.. they r so fun loving.. and yes.. i got to know new frens again..

me and baby met up after tt for dinner.. and we had seafood hor fun.. again.. long time since i last ate it.. the last time i ate it also with him.. and we had a nice time.. things were back like before.. i hope i wont lose it this time again..

i cried again today.. but not bcos of bran.. in fact he was e one comforting me.. :)
jas seah's testi to me:
It have been a wonderful period of time hanging wif u guys. we been thru all the hard times and laughters together. attitude pro gal always like to fight wif ppl. temper mus learn to control ya? known u at yr1 but closer to u this sem cos everyday see u, eat n play together. learn to forgive n forget... =)As time goes by, it coming to the end of our last sem together. No matter how much i miss u guys, still time will not stop for us. I know u guys are stress out by FYP, i pray that the coming Monday's evaluation will be a success for u guys and u all are going to do it well... Good Lucks Gals! =)

she wrote testi for jas kee, ally, lindoo too.. and we all cried.. all can.. she's e best.. fantastic.. once i finish e testi.. my tears keep falling.. jus like a water tap.. and lasted for one hour plus until our conversation slow down.. it's so sad.. we r leaving one another.. have we sit down and tout.. what we want in the future? how we will become? and will we ever contact again? has this question attack our minds before? tomolo gonna b a sad day.. e last day we r seeing one another..as in officially in tp... i hope i will b brave enuff to hold back my tears and not let it fall.. cos i know once one person starts to cry.. the rest will cry too.. i miss e gals.. the best gals ever.. and in future.. they shall stil b my best gals.. luv u gals lots.. and i tink u all realli understand me well.. appreciate the effort.. remembering the memories with u gals always..

me and him.. back together again... it's like one thing off my mind.. i know he stil lives in my heart la.. tt's for sure.. so yah.. :) thanks lots to belle.. and joan.. hu keep nagging at me.. constantly telling me tt i will regret.. and yea man.. they brought me back to the right track.. they rox..

there are jus some frens.. tt seem so near but yet so far.. it's like u know u cant get into their world.. but they are stil ur frens.. kinda contradicting.. but nvm.. onli i will understand wat i m talking about..

cant wait for hols to come.. cant wait to enjoy.. cant wait to experience s2006 with darling belley.. sweetie cutlet.. and honey alice.. wahaha..

i tout i have oreadi put everything down.. yet i still miss him.. i know i cant have him back.. but i dunno y.. i jus miss him.. i'm forcing myself to stay on to my decision.. i dun wish to turn back.. i m contradicting myself again.. nvm.. many of frens have advised me not to give up on this relationship.. they can sense how serious i m in this relationship.. but yah.. i dunno.. dun wish to think.. thanks belle..joan.. ally.. jas seah.. chuxian.. elaine.. hu have been there for me.. who is there to console me.. oh.. not forgetting my beloved dance main comm.. yang and xiaoai and cutlet.. hee..

we had sub comm interview today.. half way thru the interview.. came a msg from yongliang.. asking me to follow my heart and dun regret my decision.. haha.. so anti climax.. but yea.. i was too busy taking down notes to reply.. and then some time later.. i recieved a msg from bran.. i did read the msg but didnt reply again.. anyway back to topic..the decided sub comm members are... priscilla.. jean (aka siao eh).. unice.. samantha.. laura.. and lishi.. hope to c lishi soon.. i have no idea hu she is... onli know she is from modern.. i certainly look forward to working together with them..

counting down.. 2 more days to my failing day... the deadline submission for major proj.. our program seem to have so many loopholes.. i dun tink there is anyway we can hide from the teacher.. it is jus so farking obvious.. and our report.. haven even started.. omg.. tt is how bad the situation is.. i hope to finish it on time.. next monday is our evaluation.. cant imagine we r so suay.. the first day kena our group oreadi.. like wtf!!!

i seriously have no idea y things ends up liddat.. it has never came across my mind tt this will come to an end.. the first serious relationship i have ever been into.. yet it is the one tt has hurt me the deepest.. i'm feeling damn down.. i'm in a lost.. i dunno wat i shld do.. the pain in my heart is beyond description.. but i m not crying.. not even a drop of tears.. guess my heart is too pain to even have any other emotions.. izzit a wrong decision to have committed myself into it in the first place? m i e one causing all this pain to myself?

i dunno how i shld face him now.. i seriously dunno...he ask me to tink thru.. and meanwhile? we stay away? living our own life? and let time fade off all e times and memories together? if i know this will b e ending.. i will never have allow u to intrude into my life..

it's not his fault.. i know.. i know everything lies in me.. but yes.. i m stil gonna say this again.. this is wat i m.. he ask me to tink if i reali need him in my life.. i cant give him an ans to that.. cos me myself is lost.. i dun wish to ans the wrong thing..and we end up quarelling again..

we quarelled and i asked him to fark off.. not bcos i reali wan him out of my life.. but bcos.. i need to have some peace.. everyone ard me knows tt i cant think clearly once i m angry or agitated.. i will jus start to utter rubbish.. which totalli makes no sense.. and i will piss him off even further.. so wat's e point of talking..

not replying doesnt mean i dun care.. there's always a end to a topic.. when we tok until i seriously dunno how i shld reply u.. i choose to shut up.. no point trying hard to come out with an ans.. cos tt's not a natural reaction.. it's something tt i can jus come up with and please u.. but i dun wan.. u understand?

even now.. i guess we r not in e right mood to talk.. we need to calm down.. a curse will always remain as a curse.. a 2 months relationship curse..

mentally drained....

tomolo is a public holiday.. therefore.. it means no school.. yea man.. break myself from the stress.. actually tomolo suppose to go out with toby and joan.. but joan last minute say she sick.. so yah.. guess the outing is cancelled.. tomolo night justin celebrating his 18th bdae.. he wants me to go.. and i have rejected alot of their outings.. should i go or should i not go? haiyoyo..

i had a nice time in fay office todae helping out with prod crew stuffs.. haha... i didnt did much though.. jus cutting some stuffs there and commenting on how design of the backdrop should b like.. i keep insisting tt the font should b in golden.. cos it's nice la.. and yea.. she's finally convinced by me and she changed it to gold.. lalalalalala... when i went off she was stil doing the design for prod crew.. when tt is not suppsoe to be her job.. she is jus being nice to help.. hee.. fayanne can be nice too.. haha.. but seriously.. i do realise she do alot for her students at time also.. jus tt we dun appreciate it.. and we r climbing over her.. but at least i show some respect la.. hee..

i had a nice time with bran todae... reali enjoyed myself.. in fact.. everyday is happy with him ard.. hee.. when i'm with him.. it's stress free.. i dun have to tink of projs and assignments.. what deadlines to meet and all.. haha.. and i told him our second month coming.. but on tt day.. i cant have time for him cos of sam lee concert.. i was expecting a disappointed face from him.. but no.. he did not... he stil say he will come down and fetch me.. hee.. so sweet la... haha.. can he dun melt my heart.. haha.. i stil wanna cotinue to b ice woman..

me and bran watched the Italy fireworks on sat night.. it's so nice.. and it's makes it even nicer to be able to watch it with someone u love.. hee.. i saw one of my fren's nick.. ITALY = i trust and love u.. haha.. it makes Italy fireworks even more meaningful.. hee..

the worst thing tt one can ever experience is to feel so helpless... down with assignments and deadlines to hit.. omg.. and when u have no idea on how to start or how to finish it on time... yea man.. tt's reali bad.. tt's e helpless feeling.. every minute now is killing me softly.. i cant wait to grad.. i cant wait for this sem to pass soon.. i wanna be stress free...

another week has pass... another long week... submission this week is WSAD and presentation for CMSK4.. Everything was so cocked up.. system cant run... unable to integrate... and for presentation... handouts not done.. no rehearsing and all.. cool shit... but everything seem to turn out better than expected.. plain lucky.. next time wotn b so lucky...

it's during this period that u realise who are ur reali so called good frens... can c.. can sense.. the whole group of us were doing assignment tog.. it's through observations.. they were quite helpful on and off (for my grp of frens).. for others.. i m not sure.. in e end.. onli ally and lindoo cant integrate their assignment.. they cried.. and it reali breaks my heart to c them liddat.. but i cant b of any help.. tt's the worst feeling tt one can ever have.. i feel so much like helping.. but me myself dun even know how to do.. mine is done by others.. so yah..

some frens tink tt they have drifted apart from one another.. well.. at times.. tt is quite true.. all is busy with their own things.. the only time they come tog and enjoy is during dance.. if one reali give up dance.. does it means.. tt person is also giving up on tis group of frens too? drifting apart is never a major prob.. the major prob is the process of pulling them back..

i miss bran like alot alot alot can.. the whole week onli met for once.. and tt once is bcos he came down to fetch me home.. jus to fetch me home.. i feel liek hugging him now.. can i? :(
he isalways so understanding.. whole week rushing assignment.. and he keep giving me encouragement.. not even a word of complain.. so good la.. haha..

i feel so mcuh like watching the fireworks.. the fireworks season.. tomolo is italy.. woohoo... i remember i watch one fireworks with liang.. cant remember is spain or wat.. but it's damn nice.. reali very nice.. hope to c it again this year..

off to bed.. cos tomolo got dance.. it's dance day...

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