Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I have some thoughts on my mind... not referring to anyone in particular, not referring to any incident in particular...
I feel that when a relationship starts out, even the smallest things that the couple do together can make both feel happy... that is what we call the honeymoon period...
But when that period is over, all is left is to be slapped back to reality and give it a real thought.. to work things out... and to take the relationship to the next step.. that is when we start to expect... and eventually.. everything just gives way.. even the smallest thing on earth can create a big argument.. but it's these small lil things that make a big impact in the next big step of our life...
it's never easy... but how tough can it get?
it's always tough... but we choose to handle it in a simple way...
it's always communication that matters, but how can we get to the same frequency?
Yxiaopei'er♥
Monday, June 28, 2010
The past few weeks has been so happening...
A good news... Xiaopei got her driving license... she's gonna be a new driver on the road now... Congrats to her.. Boss says he will be celebrating for me during the Jakarta trip... i'm waiting... hahahaha... he hinted me about doing sales again... smart me know what's going on... he told me today tt he wanted to get me a new phone... and print my namecard within this week.. i managed to stop him in time... telling him we will do an evaluation after the trip... no doubt i m having tt interest again (just a bit only).... but there's so much consideration... and one of them is you... i know u wont have alot of time for me anymore, not like the past... i totally understand and trying my best to accomodate... bcos i believe either one party has to sacrifice.. and if i take this up.. it's not gonna get us anywhere... but at the same time... i am trying hard to keep myself busy.. so that i dun feel empty... and i expect u to understand this...
i am constantly reminding myself of your maggie mee theory... to the extend of using it as my MSN nick... i m trying to hold on to the faith even if it's only one strand of maggie mee left.. to be frank... my faith is not tt strong yet... but i dun wanna give up... esp after tt big fight... i feel good after all the thrash out... i realli do not wan us to end liddat... but i feel.. we drifted apart... i guess ur patience for me is up ... i can feel it... likewise... my expectation is becoming higher... we are both trying.. trying to make things work... trying to improve situations... trying to create a future... it's nvr easy and it will nvr be... alot of times when i feel like giving up... u pulled me back... i thank you for that... seriously... u made me believe that a relationship can work this far... u taught me how to put down the hatred for yongzhi... which i did... but by toking to him now.. not bcos i have forgiven him.. but bcos i respect the fact that he is ur fren...
and ppl... stop asking about yongzhi... i have moved on... doesnt matter how he treated me in the past... dun bring up that hatred... i realli wanna let it fade.. i was a kid then... so was he... our mentality and personality weren't strong enuff to hold things together... but now.. i m a grown up... i dunno if he has grown up since then but in any case... good luck to him if he hasn't... i'm glad i have mel now... bcos he is my pillar of support...
XiaoPei and one strand of Maggie Mee. Loves. :)
Yxiaopei'er♥
Saturday, June 26, 2010
One of my favourite song that has been running in my mind for one whole night:
我能说出一千个一万个理由去爱你
也能找出一千个一万个理由去恨你
it's so meaningful.. :)
we can choose how to love and how to hate...
Yxiaopei'er♥
Saturday, June 19, 2010
你想要的 我却不能夠給你我全部我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的
Yxiaopei'er♥
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
我們為愛還在學
學溝通的語言學著諒解
學著不流淚
等到我們學會飛
飛越黑夜和考驗
日子就會從孤單裡畢業
Yxiaopei'er♥
Sunday, June 13, 2010
The feeling is back after a long long while... too many arguments... too many disagreements recently... for a moment, i felt very drained out.. very sick of everything when messages doesnt get through the way we wanted it to be... to b frank, almost on the verge of reconsidering or giving up...but today, we had an extreme short meet up... yet.... i felt so loved... once again... back in his arms... i realli miss tt feeling.. thanks for pulling me back.. :)
weekend was pretty interesting... me and belle had a fun time recalling our ex-fav place... CHINATOWN... fri night and sat afternoon... on fri night... we acted as if we were some tourist sitting at an open space hawker eating some local delights like satay, kway teow and pasta... sounds interesting eh? and best is.. the food wasnt even nice... to be exact, it was far from nice... hahaha... but still, yea, we experienced it...we went for foot massage too.. DAMN SHIOK... but tt caused belle belle to have a big bruise on her leg...according to her, as big as a fist size... haha... SAT was fun too... i did my Henna... which i have wanted to long long ago... and we went to have nice desserts... *thumbs up*
Yxiaopei'er♥
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
慢慢的 这份爱 悄悄的住下来
深深的 在心里 没人看的出来
安静的 但却一直都在
是你默默的爱
慢慢的 这份爱 已经变成依赖
浅浅的 笑容里 却让我充满期待
不用说 我就能够明白
你默默的爱
Yxiaopei'er♥
