cabbing home with danny is ever so fun.. serious.. no joke man.. i m sure nicole and raaz will agree with me on this.. passing by geylang never fails to excite me.. first time we saw lotsa duh standing at roadside promoting themselves.. and this time.. with police raiding them.. sometimes i really feel sad for them.. don't they have any other way out? i believe in hard work.. not in easy money.. is it tt they really need this money or is it purely greed?

dancing has been so fun ever.. like always.. but things arent really going on well.. i m really really glad tt we r more bonded now.. mayb some doesnt feel it.. but it is happening.. but one week of unofficial training makes a diff.. not in bonding but in dance.. jus dance.. haha.. we gonna buck up.. and yes.. darling nicole.. get over it soon.. we love u k.. and to pris.. pls dun keep things to urself.. sometimes.. things need to b blurt out.. :)

malaysia trip was a flung last sun.. and we didnt go in e end.. gin was rather disappointed and irritated i tink.. but yeap.. we going this sun.. woolala.. endless shopping there.. haha.. hope it will b a fun trip..

unknowingly.. this is the month of feb.. the most happening month ever.. valentine day is coming.. nearing.. omg.. haha.. and yes.. chinese new year coming too.. woohoo..

things between me and him r currently fine.. remain fine pls.. i love this kinda life.. hee.. and yes.. sip is finishing.. counting down.. it's like next fri.. need to find a job soon.. like real soon.. no more delays..

FB performance was great.. looking at how some of their juniors dance can simply make one jaws dropped.. i'm serious man.. they r damn groovy.. haha.. ok.. i m motivated again.. i m!!.. haha.. their performance and hip hop hunt competition rocks to max.. enjoyed myself there..

day with the gals was fun again.. eating like some mad pigs when we were at bedok and not some special place.. jus chilling.. we had so so so much food.. we ate BK.. and at bedok.. we had sushi.. waffles.. macdonalds.. plus tea leaves eggs.. muahaha.. such a fruitful day stuffing myself with food.. i'm gonna get fat..

gin is leaving so much faster than expected.. next next mon.. 5 feb.. she leaving for new york.. for a reason i cant understand.. to film sun ho mtv.. like hmmm.. i shall not comment.. haha.. and yeap.. we rushing to complete choreo this coming week.. an indication tt i will b superly busy and down with dance.. after one long week of rest..

no more malaysia trip tomolo.. cos of stupid reasons tt everyone cant make it.. and gin was somehow disappointed plus fuming mad.. she finally exploded.. first time since we form this dancework team.. tt's not a good thing though.. i feel tt once again.. i failed as a leader to accomplish some missions.. haiz.. i'll take things in my stride..

i m trying hard to get my ankle back into good working condition again.. pls wait for me to come and explode again.. meanwhile.. i shall be good and dun dance so much ba.. :)

helping xyz with his project is ever so fun.. trying so hard to make him dirty by buah-ing my dirty hands on his face.. haha.. and yuppi.. lotsa other fun things too.. loves to him..

work has been rather boring since we have oreadi completed the project and now left with only documentations. sometimes i wonder if we can jus work from home.. well.. since tt have always been what my big boss is doing.. like one msg down... and he can bloody stay at home for the whole entire day.. while we slog here like hell.. facing computer with lotsa unknown languages slammed right in our faces. but yeap.. working here has been rather relaxing these few days.. me and eileen practically come work everyday surfing the net browsing through video and doing all nonsense stuffs.. haha..


dancework stuffs.. we r having our cart to save every single cent we have for dance fund or to say.. for dancework fund.. pls support our cart ppl.. it's on the 9 feb.. on fri.. my last day of attachment too.. will try taking leave down to help out.. haha.. and yeap.. trip to malaysia this sun.. woolala.. looking forward to it.. but heard tt it is quite dangerous though.. omg omg omg.. i have so much freaking things tt i wanna get man..


ok tt's all for today.. i shall not mention bout my ankle or anything here.. cos.. cos.. cos i jus dun feel like.. haha.. for no partocular reason..

things have been getting better these few days.. it's a great sign.. xiaopei is much optimistic now..thanks for all who have been by my side.. spending ample time with family and close ones are very impt.. homely feeling is great.. it's so heavenly.. ok.. undescribable feeling i would say.

liang bdae on sun.. a great night.. haha.. random chats with aaron here and there.. since he is like the only one i know there.. and mayb robin.. one of liang sec sch fren.. saw brandon there too.. didnt talk though.. i guess things are better off this way.. like we lead our own life..

dance is like filling up all my time.. i enjoyed it to bits though.. all the sweeties.. and seeing everyone being able to communicate now.. the feeling is so great.. i start to feel the bond among the gals.. not the guys yet though.. i'm still waiting.. meiqi was great.. she bought doughnuts for everyone on sun training.. and roy.. he spent 32 hours uploading videos for the all gals dance.. they rocks..

it's always through things and arguments tt make us realise tt we r at fault.. and start to reflect, start to think.. and try to amend for what is lost.. i realised my mistake and making up for it.. i'm trying to find time for him.. trying to push off all unnecessary things.. cos i know i cant cope.. and i'm gonna breakdown if i continue like this.. but dance stuffs.. regardless dance work all other events.. i will stil care.. no matter what.. cos it's my responsibility.. but i m have been coping quite ok i guess.. :) sometimes when he is pplain concern for me.. i know.. but the way words are being put across makes us pissed at each other.. haiz.. it's not good.. haha..

sun trip to malaysia.. big big gang going.. wahaha.. looking forward.. the d'verse dance team ppl and some commercial ppl going.. then gin and kh going.. da street soul ppl going.. xyz going with me too.. yayz... i wanna buy cap.. bnut i freakingly dun suit wearing cap.. like damn it.. haha..

the day have turned out to be a nice way in the end.. sleeping till noon time is great.. got the shiok feeling la.. haha.. took mc for work today which was planned ahead with another intern of mine.. and yea.. my supervisor was like oh.. both mc on same day.. haha.. cannot is it.. it's jus coincidence what.. but actually it is not.. wahaha.. but yah.. i need rest man.. headed down to school to watch belley's choir performance as well as tpde performance.. didn't get to c the modern one though... what a waste..

tpde dance did a great job today for the gals part.. but the guys part somehow messy.. i like the finale.. haha.. starting some random freestyle moves choreo by me.. some random steps.. and yeap.. the rest of toma was by xyz.. hee.. choir didnt realli did well today.. the mic cock up and alll.. production crew.. forever.. can u all do one complete good job like for once?

open house is damn fun.. we did the tp dance.. sang the tp school song and did lotsa random stuff with the dance ppl.. had ben and jerry ice cream.. which taste fantastically nice.. and gucci won one ben and jerry ice cream too.. with the help of all.. haha..

prac for tomolo performance.. open house 07 jam and hop.. lotsa things happen during training.. thrashing out of stuffs and all.. but glad things are fine between me and foong.. pris and foong.. pris and rinna.. and yeap.. hope everything will stay fine this way.. thanks alot to xyz for preaching for half an hour before i decided to talk things out with foong.. and i'm glad i did.. understanding things from her make things so much better and yes.. i'll say i dare to make her my fren again.. :)

things are fine between me and xyz now.. must make it stay this way man.. loves to xyz.. haha.. we had such lovely time at prata shop with 2 couples.. me and xyz.. pok and unice..suppose to have 3.. but mel and ahlee never go.. haha.. and yes.. mel and ahlee officially tog.. hip hip hurray..

yes.. i m stress!!! so? is there anything i can do? is bcos of everything ard me tt makes me stress.. do anyone understand.. the surrounding is pressuring me.. trying hard to make everything be there.. trying hard to make everyone happy.. making everyone feel not being left out.. but each time.. the feeling of being hurt comes back.. what can i say.. i m NUMB!!! NUMB to the feeling of being hurt.. do whatever u want do me.. slash me to pieces.. burn me to ash.. i seriously dunno what to do to my life.. i SUCK!! tt's all i can say.. nothing else.. ppl.. stop trying to act like u understand me.. understand what i m going through.. cos u all dun.. i dun need concern.. dun need understanding.. i jus need my space and world to think.. so pls dun understand me.. it doesnt help.. so what if u do? anything u all can do to help? sometimes i would rather everyone jus shut up.. EVERYTHING JUS DOESNT HELP!!! DUN UNDERSTAND ME!!!

today is a rainy day.. my mood is exactly what the weather is like.. too many things happened in one day and i m not strong enuff to handle them.. i have always tout myself as a strong gal.. apparently no.. there are times when i fall too..

chatting with loren online.. found out from her alot of stuffs about the dance team.. i feel tt i have neglected alot of things.. the seniors feelings.. like y seniors are being prioritised to do performances and stuff.. i know alot feel left out.. not jus bcos of dancework team.. but bcos of no updates even though they r not involve.. but yah they r not updated of events going on.. until they have to hear from their frens.. yah it's my fault.. it's realli my fault.. i'm sad.. not bcos loren say these thing to me.. it bcos she say.. again.. i m the bad person speaking up.. and yes.. y muz it always be loren and not from other.. when u all r my frens.. y not the rest.. i met joan in the afternoon.. i met roy and carryn and meiqi and night.. i dunno who is talking but obviously it has to b someone from the group.. but y.. y no one bothers to tell and yet speaking among urself WHY WHY WHY!!!! u mean u all cant talk to me? or u all simply cant b bothered? it disappoints me.. at least as a fren..

career fair meant to b great.. talks given.. new opportunities seeked.. but things jus doesnt turned out the way u want them to b.. interviewed to be air stewardess for SIA.. i got selected and onli 2 were selected out of 10.. alot were happy for me.. cos they find it a rare opportunity.. but apparently.. those not agreeable ones.. are actually those closest to me.. the reaction i got from my sis.. u realli wanna b air stewardess.. u tink it's fun? u tink u will have future? what's with impractical dreams.. and then she ask me to go tink through myself.. u mean i cant have dreams? u mean i cant aspire to be something someone.. nvm.. i give up.. i go suit with whatever whoever u all wan me to b fine?!?! no point arguing back.. no one is proud of me.. no one is simply proud of who i m .. what i m thinking..

i know the ppl i m going to refer to.. will b reading my blog.. and yes.. i m angry cos no explanation is given.. ahlee left for training at 630 today.. cos we excused her to go c doctor.. she told us she going her house there to c.. and she reached the tamp interchange at like freaking 8pm.. tell me what excuse have u got to take such long time? and best thing is mel ask me if i can leave at tt moment and go acc and find ahlee to acc her to c doctor.. cos she doesnt know where the clinic is.. but yah.. is it appropriate for me to leave everything for tt reason.. u all farking know tt i can b irritated by anyone who is late or leaving without giving valid reason.. but yah.. m i suppose to do this.. not tt i dun wanna acc ahlee.. i will wan to.. cos she is my good fren too.. but i have to draw a line.. esp when it is training.. how to tell everyone to not be late or dun miss training when i m doing this.. i explained this to mel.. he understands but yah.. i'm jus in bad mood.. and obviously.. i aint feeling great today..

meiqi and roy late for training today.. meiqi apologise.. roy ended with something.. my lesson ended late.. then i asked y didnt u informed.. he answered.. u can call me what.. u also never call me.. hello.. r u suppose to inform me.. or m i suppsoe to look for u.. and he say.. anywae gin is not here.. u mean.. gin is not here.. u dun have to show any farking respect to the team? or tt is the best effort u can show.. if yes.. well.. i appreciate it.. but it is not even what i feel is the minimum.. apparently.. i had someone admitting tt i was taken for granted.. my heart sank like titantic ship.. y? i'm good to bully? and my good fren somemore.. i m taken for GRANTED.. i m so gonna heck care everything.. it's the team forcing me to do so.. i'm disappointed.. in everything and everything.. i feel shitty now.. take a knife and stab me in the heart pls.. like right now..

dance is dragging my life down.. mommy is angry.. even xyz is not feeling fine with it.. the person tt i assume will understand the best.. the person tt will understand me most turns out to b the person liddat.. one thing i learn.. never assume.. cos assume makes an ass out of u and me.. and yes.. i feel so assy now.. seriously assy.. i m trying to make the effort u c? do u c? i know i have no time for u.. i m trying hard to squeeze out every single bit of lil moments i have.. even meeting jus for supper i dun even mind.. what else.. tell me what else can i do.. i m lost.. agitated.. everything.. i dun blame u for feeling liddat cos i know it is my fault.. but i need udnerstanding.. all these not what i wan also what.. i m trying also.. but i have responsibilities to ans to.. one message "dun need meet.. u busy with ur own.. bye"..tt farking single moment broke my heart into pieces.. u mean all the effort i have been trying to show onli allow u to have such comments left for me? what's with ending with bye.. this is the first time u did this.. and this bye.. reali hurts.. like deep into the heart u know.. it may not mean anything to u.. but it means to the recipient.. the first reaction i feel like having is fark u.. nvm.. i know.. no one will understand and not like anyone care.. to the whole world outside.. i no longer needs console need understanding need anything from everyone.. everything is my fault.. i brought it upon myself.. i'm the most farked up gal on earth k..

i have so much and so much to say.. but who is lending me a listening ear.. who is standing by my side.. fighting hand in hand with me.. who can dun oppose me for once.. who can b the one understanding what i m going through.. i m such a thrash.. or mayb cos i m wearing a thrash tee today tt makes me look like thrash.. if i m thrash.. pls tell me u dun need me and throw me away.. dun do all these nonsense things to hurt me... i'm had enough.. enough of everything.. falling upon me.. not in time for me to get myself prepared.. yes i m tearing.. how many farking of u out there care.. i may seem emo to u.. but tink.. i m having a hard time too.. i m human.. i have feelings.. i m fragile.. at least for today.. i m.. i feel like dying.. i feel like hiding in my bed and cry..

i kiss the world goodbye.. i'm gonna give up everything like real soon.. i'm reali reali not able to handle all these.. i dun feel strong anymore...not ever feeling strong again..

xiaopei is in a confused state. not knowing what to do with the team anymore.. i'm sure alot of the dance ppl heard bout out team talk yest and wanna know what happen.. and yea.. u all should know..

gin made us sit down tog and talk.. first thing she ask us to do is to take out a piece of paper each and write down the name of the person tt we personally feel like kicking out.. we can choose not to write but of cos those who have thoughts wrote.. and then we were asked to take out another piece of paper again and write down the style of the person we like in the team.. all results onli gin knows.. when we submitted these 2 pieces of paper.. she read through it and tears dropped.. she told us it's very saddening to know that the ppl who wanna kick this person out.. is the person whom show all of us the most respect.. how hurtful it is.. i swear i did not write anything on the first piece of paper.. cos i feel i m not good enuff to comment on anyone.. i jus hope the team works.. tt's all..

she told us to sit down in a circle.. and all 5 guys all separated in their own teeny weeny corners.. and roy was given the task to bond the guys.. which i feel is good.. i hope it works.. and yea.. we thrashed out everything..we go person by person and everyone commented on what they r unhappy with.. i beleive there are still some who have their own talks and refuse to speak up but yea.. i'm glad tt at least i did my part in speaking up whatever i m not happy with.. ppl who never speak up.. i hope u all dun talk behind among urselves.. if not.. i will slash ur tongues off.. haha...

she spoke to me the night before at FB party.. and she told me.. as an instructor she see us liddat.. so not bonded and have to draw such a clear line between seniors and juniors.. it's very saddening.. she say if we manage to get into finals and get any awards.. and imagine the team go on stage receive the awards tog.. but when going back to back stage.. everyone take their things and go off their own way.. she as an instructor will also feel sad for us.. cos this is not a team..

she split my tasks to the team equally.. ensuring tt everyone is contributing something.. :) i'm glad and i hope this works.. giving each and everyone of us some sense of responsibilty.. the team has been reliant for so long.. everyone knows this problem has been circulating around.. everyone knows tt there are jus some free loaders in the team.. but the free loaders arent making effort at all to even farking reflect until yest when we thrash things out.. and i hope this prob will not surface again.. if not everything has to go round round round and round again..

i'm experiencing very low confidence plus low morale now.. i dunno what i can do to boost my confidence also.. like mel say.. it is all up to me to overcome it.. i know.. i m trying.. but how? i'm glad tt i still have frens ard who is like supportive.. like ah siao they all.. but most of my frens.. even not dancing frens.. r encouraging to leave the team.. they find it no point staying.. when bonding and stuffs is not there.. but gin haven even give up on us.. is it right for me to give up? i dunno.. seriously farking confused..

and ppl.. i know u all will come and read my blog.. those who haven pay me the knee guard money pls take the initiative to.. or u all realli waiting for me to open my mouth to ask the money from u all? it's not a very nice thing to do u know..but yah.. i'll have to do it if neccesarily..

and yes.. i got a sweety cutie octopus from unice babe.. u reali very tang guo.. haha.. love the gals.. they have been nice supportive.. comments they give.. like yah.. everything and everything.. love u gals.. thanks.. kisses to u all..

went to one of the FB party last sat... jingwen's bdae party.. cos wayne asked me to go.. and yea.. had quite a nice chat with him there.. bitch bout lotsa stuff.. his gf.. huimin.. haha.. i tink if loren and joan sees this.. she's gonna laugh her heads off.. like woohoo.. haha.. but now they r ex.. and yea.. chat with some FB ppl also.. and all of them is calling me sai now.. cos i always say sai la.. or pi la.. and the combination they came up with is pi sai(nose shit).. like wtf.. haha.. hilarious ppl.. i also had a nice chat with their president.. rachel.. she's a sweetie sweetie pie.. she ask me how's life being the incharge of the team.. and we shared alot of experiences.. she told me each team got their own prob.. their team major prob is bcos they dun have insturctor and very hard for juniors to respect them cos they dun have someone professional to guide them.. but yah.. look at the FB now.. they r doing so well now.. this shows tt rachel has been doing a great job.. i'm so proud of her..and yes.. the party.. 6 generations of FB ppl turn up can.. this is how united they r.. gin batch was there.. and even gin senior was there i heard.. until now.. xyz batch and his juniors.. like omg.. for tp.. mayb if u wan like one batch of 20 ppl come down.. i tink super hard lo.. not i wanna say.. but yah.. look at the concert celebration with the pathetic 15 of us.. and usual splitting into gangs tt kinda stuffs.. like yah..and yes ppl.. pls look out of FB musical in april.. woohoo.. i'm looking forward to it.. r u?

yay.. did another performance today.. for some sports event at tcc.. it was great.. everyone was high except retard mel.. they had a cool suggestion.. wearing big big tees to perform.. i was like shocked when i was told last night.. like hmm.. like erm.. i will look like i m wearing pyjamas.. but like NO!!! we look ok.. nice.. not very nice.. but nice enuff to present ourselves.. and everyone got into the big tee craze.. we went to shop at IP zone after a great meal at KFC and we bought quite a few tops... big big tees rocks.. like woohoo.. what's with me wearing hotpink.. haha.. i hope no one laughs.. haha.. cos it is so not xiaopei style.. but like yea.. it's nice.. wanna wait for lee and nana to send me fotos of performance.. super retard.. me and justin.. act gong gong.. me and pris.. the shu nu post.. me and the gals.. retard locking pose.. and the old school pointing.. wahaha.. fun fun and fun.. thanks everyone for the great day.. woohoo.. loves to all..

gonna start on lyrical jazz tomolo.. according to gin.. woohoo.. i m jus gonna die there.. dunno y.. i dun realli like lyrical hip hop.. or due to one thing.. i cant catch the style.. but yah.. die die have to do.. so will do my best and force that style out.. each day is a good start.. i hope i will c some hope in the team tomolo.. but at the same time.. i m not hoping to disappoint myself.. and seriously we need a team talk.. to wake everyone up... tell them how impt this competition is.. tell them who is gonna join and how competitive it is.. do they farking understand? nvm.. tomolo.. we shall c.. and yea.. i bought knee guard for everyone oreadi.. some say i m stupid to buy for everyone.. when some doesnt even bother to find and check out prices but yea.. we r a team.. but this shall b the last time.. i m not gonna get bullied. :(

ok xiaopei gotta turn in.. if not tomolo e one who kena fine for lateness will b me.. oops..nights ppl...

Your Birthdate: September 30

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abit late for updates.. but yah.. i believe every year should have a conclusion..

The year 2006 was a great one.. realli.. i thanks everyone who made my 2006 a good one.. new frens and old frens.. those who came and left.. everyone...

Starting of the year.. i became one of the main committee for dance ensemble.. where all the responsibilites and stuffs came my way.. it has trained me to b more independent.. i've learned alot in the main comm.. and i thank everyone who made me who i m.. i thank everyone of those who gave me chances.. i made my way through and b who i m today.. cos of u guys.. i love TPDE.. in this year of 2007.. i m leaving the main committee.. passing down to the next batch.. i hope whoever is taking over do a good job.. i'm not saying i have been doing a good job.. i m not.. cos i believe i could have done better.. and i hope the team will maintain and will not fall.. qiao told me yest.. she sees the team growing from uncle toby batch of committee to our batch of committee.. i suddenly feel the happiness.. effort put in has been seen.. improvements have been made.. and everyone is realising it.. although some might not agree and still feels tt the team is very chak chak.. but i will say.. things cant be built up overnight..

close frens came about.. isabelle.. jonathan.. YL.. Chia.. so on and so on.. esp belle.. i realli treasure u alot as a fren.. u have been great.. been with me during my ups and down.. loads of love to u..i'm realli so glad tt u came for my concert.. cos apparently onli u and jon and ur INTSC ppl made the effort down.. my sec sch buddies.. xingan.. elaine.. chuxian.. jiahui.. thanks for always accomodating to my schedule and making the effort to stay in touch with me.. u all r like my childhood frens till now.. so like yah.. dance frens.. joan.. loren.. meiqi.. carryn.. roy.. times have been fun with u all ard.. picnic.. parties.. gathering.. full of ideas and laughter involved.. juniors like unice.. jean.. rinna. ahlee.. foong'er.. pris.. mel.. py.. raaz..u guys spiced up my life too.. hanging out with u all has always been fun.. esp the funksoul ppl.. we went through so much tog..

TPDE Dance concert.. SWEAT IT OUT.. it has been another memorable concert with the dance team.. tears and laughter.. and every process that we went through tog.. from we dunno one another until all came tog and went out shopping and stuffs.. times when we learning breakdance.. falling here and there.. like some bounceable idiots.. sam babe.. always in her gymnast and chinese dance world.. entertaining us.. gucci always calling me jiejie.. jean also adressing me as siao eh.. arrrgghhh.. so much and so much memories flowing back.. and i recalled crying after the concert cos i missed the process too much.. some of us have grown and stayed closer with the dance team.. some of us have drifted apart.. some have even left with no news at all.. memories and memories.. the final day of the concert.. a great one.. we did our very best.. i guess.. and yea.. the meaningful sunflower with a thousand meanings in it.. the happy bdae choreo.. which in return made me had a happy bdae wave from the gals on my bdae.. realli miss tt.. m i gonna have another Happy Bdae wave next year? mayb by tt time u all oreadi wash me off from ur memories.. haha..

love life.. 2 boyfrens in a year.. experiences.. happy times and sad times and angry times.. clashes in views.. character disagreements and stuffs.. so much and so much.. hoping tt i have found my right one.. someone tt can click and all.. i believe everyone will find the right one as long as they have patience.. how right is right.. haha.. i have no idea.. we have to figure it out ourselves.. seeing couples get tog.. still tog or break.. feel the happiness and sadness for them.. pris and justin.. unice and pok.. unice and wayne.. YL and eeling.. eric chia and cynthia.. me and bran.. me and xyz.. lotsa and lotsa stuffs.. in e year to come.. of cos.. i hope to stay with xyz.. :) he taught me alot of things.. and motivated me and alot alot more bout him.. and yes.. i m so glad he clicks with my frens too.. haha.. with the cups and all.. oops.. haha..

school life.. struggling like mad pigs in major proj.. but have learnt alot through it.. the most interesting part is to analyse how communicate with ng soon aik.. accepting his interesting habits like nose digging sesson.. armpit scratching sessions and all.. and yes.. i m so proud of myself i manage to live through all tt nonsense for all a year.. like damn suay la.. haiyo..haha.. www.soonaik.com.. ppl pls visit if u r free.. this website realli does exist ok.. wahaha.. MP lab frens have been great.. Seah.. Kee.. Ally.. Xinhui.. Riki.. ZheQian.. and not forgetting my major proj buddies.. vivian aka nehmo.. and suriani.. i'm missing them like hell lots.. imagine like staying till late night everyday in school with them..till now like prac no contact.. vivian still sometimes in contact i know.. but yah.. still feel drifted apart.. and my initial poly frens.. whom i assume to b one only group of poly frens.. apparently.. disappeared from my life.. and i guess.. they dun even remember me at all.. tt's how i feel.. from the past where u gals used to bother to even tag or say hi in msn.. till now.. hu remembers my existence? onli belle? but yah.. if u gals choose to stay away.. i accept the fact and i will go on with my life... but i reali thanks ally kee seah xinhui and isabelle.. for always nagging at me to ask me to study hard.. without this naggings.. it's either i m oreadi in the phase of year 5 or oreadi out of poly.. i appreciate the effort of u gals..

so much and so much.. the thing i miss most is still dance.. it grew from a play play kinda thing.. to a passion.. to where my family grows.. where i c the dance team grow.. to alot alot of stuffs.. alot alot of processes went through.. i dunno how to express myself.. but i'm realli realli glad to have this dance team.. times and again.. i promised the funksoul gals.. i will not cry cos i miss the concert and the processes being with them too much.. but i admit.. on and off.. emotions still attacked me.. sometimes tears will jus dropped..

in this year to come.. some have entered the dancework competition team with me..while some did not.. but in any case.. let's still stay tog as frens.. jean pris and ahlee.. we promised to work hard and fight our way through.. to unice foong'er rinna.. u gals will still b my babes.. foong'er.. still waiting for ur HCG.. haha.. and yes.. i forgot to mention bout nicole.. she is sweet too.. but i dun get to talk to her often.. but now we r in the same dancework team.. hope more chances.. puting with nicole.. qiao.. pris and jean aka ah siao have been fun.. but realli.. i hope those in the dancework team spend a bit more effort to contribute and not sit there.. waiting for a few of us to settle.. how many of u actually bothers to make the effort.. when a day has been decided to find knee guards.. ended up everyone say cannot.. have plans oreadi.. i forgot bout it.. and left onli few of us.. and what.. we r suppose to get it for u all? is this our job? like tt's e best effort u all can show? and this is call good attitude? like fark.. like my foot.. i'm seriously farking irritated by this.. not voicing out doesnt mean problems dun exist.. sometimes it is jus waiting for u all to reflect and make the change urself.. if u need ppl to pin point at u and tell u.. this is ur mistake.. u shouldnt this and that.. all i can say is.. u r RETARD.. i'm gonna explode soon.. i have so much things to say bout this team.. everyone is jus so reliant.. lateness and stuffs.. does this look like chalet? do u all feel urgency? do u feel the right attitude? and talking bout costumes.. how many realli actually bother to help ask ard for contacts of tailors? shoot me back if i m wrong.. all u all know is to ask for conclusion.. "so how's shopping today? u all manage to fidn the knee guards? " like y should u care when u dun even make the effort.. pure spoon-feeding.. to me.. all these are nonsense.. mayb i did too much for u all in e past.. apparently.. tt's what roy and some other commented.. and tt's y u all find me too slack in communicating with u all.. too soft with u all and all.. pls dun attempt to climb over me.. i m human..i have limits.. i will explode someday and the day is coming near..

i have no idea y i started voicing all my unhappiness here.. but yah.. i feel better.. and i m hoping tt everyone in D'verse sees this.. reflect and wake up..

ok.. tt's all i have to say for year 2006 i tink.. 2007 will be another great year ahead.. a major change for me.. stepping out into working society.. :)

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♥there's hope♥

♥i wanna dance.. always and ever...♥

♥Temasek Polytechnic..♥
♥Full of happiness and joy ♥
JASMINE AKA ER NIANG
SEAH JAS AKA BAOBEI AKA SINIANG...

♥JYSS..♥
♥it's where we built our dreams on..♥
WEIPING AKA XINGAN
JIAHUI AKA STRAWBERRY
CHU XIAN THE FIERCE GAL

♥DANCERS ALIVE!!!♥
♥Dance is a conversation.♥
PRISCILLA AKA LAUGHING GAL
JASMINEFOONG AKA FENG'ER
JASMINELEE AKA AHLEE
♥OTHERS♥
THONG LER

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