Sunday, December 20, 2009
i read a story about a couple.. who are both striving hard for what they want... and decide to part to strive for what they wan in life.. the same scenario happened to me recently... it has yet to happen but it's gonna happen.. real soon... if i say i m not scare... that's a lie.. he said" it's either gonna make us stronger or break us apart... "no doubt the choice is ours.. but the fear is still there... as much as i would like to have faith and to hold on... but i dunno what's ahead of us... i dunno if i have the determination.. neither do i know if i can keep him by my side even if i dun have time for him.. he promised he will never give up on me... this is the thing tt reali touched me alot... even if he breaks the promise someday... at least... we tried.. :) thank you... and.. i love you..
Yxiaopei'er♥
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Recital in over... WOOHOO.. time to rest well.. :)More energy needs to be channeled to work.. to swiny mel... to darling belle.. to joan and gang... to xingan and gang... and many many more...Thanks to chong chong chong for the wonderful photos... i reali reali love it... :)Back from a business from KL.. it's really an eye opener for me... tiring.. of cos.. we slept at like 230am and wake up at 6am everyday... i look like zombie roaming the streets... plus have to drink and entertain.. discuss strategies and conclusion for the day's meeting... but it's reali fun.. worth it... :) good food everyday.. u name it.. i had it... from abalone to shark fin to bird nest to herbal soup... i had it all.. and so sick of it.. after 3 days of such food... hope next year will be a better year in career... hope my boss keeps his words...Officially HAPPY 5 months anniversary to me and mel... it's so damn fast.. it seems like a yesterday thing.. but unknowingly.. it's 5 months... thank you mel for ALWAYS being there.. be it whether i m sick or healthy.. sad or happy... fat or skinny... hahaha... just wanna say... a BIG THANK YOU... for all the support and encouragement and NAGGINGs... :p i know your worries about next yr.. about what's gonna happen if my boss keeps his words... on my side... i promise i will handle it well. :) still back to that song:* it's a long long journey... so stay by my side... when i walk through the storm.. you'll be my guide..*More happiness to come... let's have faith.. :)
Yxiaopei'er♥
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The internal struggle... i cried to sleep.. again..
" if you get there before i do
dun leave upon me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i dunno how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again...
i'll be loving you..."
:'(
Yxiaopei'er♥
Thursday, December 10, 2009
*frustration* *anger* *fear* *turning mad*
i... ... dunno what to do with my life... it's so messed up.. everything is so messed up...i m sick and yet to recover.. and i dunno when i'll recover.. it's so irritating.. not my choice tt i wanna be stress... my work is like this and i dun have a choice.. the only path left is... to leave...only when i leave.. i wont have migrane.. no gastric flu..i m no longer happy.. with anything and everything.. nothing pleases me anymore.. nothing...all i need is some personal space.. alone time.. rest time and think about nothing else but sleep...hate to do things against my wishes... and sometimes i hate it when i dun even get a chance to choose...
Yxiaopei'er♥
