Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Again, it has been long long time since I last update my blog... But I'll try once again.. To do it on a frequent basis to express my thoughts.. Not for anyone, but myself...
Life has been hectic but it has been fruitful so far.. Due to some incidents, I came to realize or rather a wake up call that dance is actually not my everything and I actually survived well and happy without it..
Recently I met someone who has been really nice to me.. Showering and pampering me with lotsa concern.. And another someone who could have treated me better.. Ironic eh.. But it's different kind of love.. E first someone peeled crab for me.. So that I dun have to struggle with it.. Open wet tissue and put it nicely beside me so that I can use it after eating crab.. How thoughtful right..
While the other someone.. I'm kinda giving up hope.. 90percent given up.. 10percent for a chance for him to repent.. I have learnt from him.. To put everything above our relationship.. From work to school.. Everything.. Since this is how it works.. I follow suit.. I feel that I no longer have the energy to fight.. To explain.. To scold and to remind how neglected I m.. There were so many chances that u could have used to treat me better but u let it slip off once and again.. I'm tired and I'm ready to let go.. I no longer wanna commit or to put in any effort at all.. I know u have been pretty unhappy about my attitude and the way I m replying for the last few days.. But mind u.. This is what I have been getting for the last one year.. And yes.. U will b the lowest priority in my life now.. If it happens.. Good.. If it doesn't.. I'm not expecting... If we r free then meet.. If anyone ask me out.. I will gladly go and reject u.. Bcos I'm tired and I dun wanna try for anything at all.. At least not for the short term.. I need to get away.. From u..
And start my life all over again.. I feel I deserve better.. And yes I m very upset for all the quarrels and then no improvement.. Not even now.. U r not even trying... If that is the case.. Let it b a goodbye kiss.. I need to let this off my mind... Not from anger but from words of disappointment..
Good night...
Thanks u Isabelle and secret guardian angel and mummy and sister.. U guys have been really supportive about everything in my life.. And u guys deserve the attention.. Loves and hugs!!!
Yxiaopei'er♥
