Sunday, September 26, 2010
爱要耐心等待，仔细寻找，感觉很重要。
宁可空白了手，等候一次，
真心的拥抱。
我相信在这个世界上，
一定会遇到，
对的人出现。。。
再眼前。
我希望我已经找到那个对的人。。。
让我永远幸福快乐。。。
我。。。珍惜眼前所拥有的一切一切。。。
Yxiaopei'er♥
Monday, September 20, 2010
i learnt a new poem last week from Cyndi.
Seven step poem.. in the Cao dynasty...
here it goes...
*quote*
煮豆燃豆萁
Zhu Dou Ran Dou Qi
To cook beans, you are burning the stalks of the beans
豆在斧中泣
Dou Zai Fu Zhong Qi
The beans are crying in the pot
本是同根生
Ben Shi Tong Gen Sheng
Both of us are originated from the same roots
相煎何太急
Siang Jian He Tai Ji
Why are we killing each other with such harsh?
*un-quote*
Cao Pi was always jealous of his brother Cao Zhi. Their father Cao Cao had initially wanted Cao Zhi to take over his position and rule the state. But though cunning and treacherous methods, Cao Pi managed to make Cao Zhi lose favor with Cao Cao and hence he was the one anointed to be the next ruler of the State of Wei.
Despite being the Emperor, Cao Pi was extremely wary of his brother whom he worried will be up against him sooner or later. It was at this point when his spies told him that Cao Zhi was complaining about his treatment. Cao Pi decided to take this opportunity to get rid of his brother once and for all.
Cao Pi needed a reason of course, so that at least he won't have a hard time explaining why he killed his own brother. He had his brother taken to the palace. Cao Pi next told Cao Zhi that as Cao Zhi had always been well known for his poetry and talents, he felt that this wasn't true, someone might has been writing the poems and literary works for him and wanted him to prove his talents.
To prove his talents, Cao Pi wanted Cao Zhi to compose a poem within seven steps. Making things more difficult, the poem had to mention their brotherly relationship but could not use the word "Brother". Cao Zhi composed the poem in seven steps.
This ancient Chinese poem was used as an idiom today Zhu Dou Ran Qi to mean brothers harming each other.
Yxiaopei'er♥
Saturday, September 18, 2010
I had my first bdae celebration today!!! it's AWESOME....belle dropped by my place at 12 noon, handing me 3/4 of my pressie..
that consist of a photo frame specially designed by her....
a couple soft toy (bear= guy, mouse = girl)... but the mouse is bigger than bear... lol...
and a BUFFALO watch... it's beautiful.. comes with time, date and day!!!
First stop, we headed to harbour front center to have tim sum lunch...
the food tastes good... and the chinese tea they serve is damn nice..
i had quite a few cups of it...
NEXT... we went to BUILD-A-BEAR...
and i thought she was kidding when she mentioned it months back...
but belle was darn serious about it..
ok.. i built a BUNNY.. dressed all in black (since i love black so much.. and so happen tt both me and belle were in black today)...
and my bunny look damn retro.. and can sing a classic happy bdae song...
we named it the Elsabelle Tan... it means alot to me and i m so gonna take good care of it...
we made a vow that we are gonna take good care of the bunny since we brought it to life.. :)
AND THEN... followed by movie " going the distance"...
it's a wonderful love story... that touches deep down into one's heart...
it makes me re-think... how easy and how hard it is to bid ur love one goodbye...
well... no answer nor comment to that question/statement...
NEXT UP... went to clarke quay...
randomly shopped for ard an hour...
and here comes the surprise...
Mel love said he's having school till NIGHT TIME...
but he popped right in front of me at Clarke Quay at 630pm...
and appeared with a combo set of G-MAX tickets...
and from the way i saw it earlier... it had ALREADY freaked me out...
and i really have no guts to take the ride alone..
so out of sympathy... belle and mel bought another combo set...
each has to sit one ride with me...
it's an AWESOME experience... but once in a lifetime is enuff...
my lungs almost came out from my mouth... lol...
but it's really a good experience...
LASTLY, followed by a good dinner at Brasserie Wolf @ Robertson Quay...
thumbs up for the main course and dessert..
no comments for the appetizers cos all veggies and i donated to mel.. lol..
the food is basically the only thing u can compliment about there...
the service.. was close to 0 marks... except for one waiter who bothered to say "welcome" when we said "thank you"... haha...
i am very touched and speechless for all that belle and mel had planned...
thank u both for the effort..
and mel.. i know u r tired after school.. but u made the effort..
and i really feel it.. and appreciate it... thank u love...
THANK YOU ISABELLE AND MEL LOVE...
TODAY IS THE DAY THAT MEANS ALOT TO ME AND WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED...
Yxiaopei'er♥
Monday, September 13, 2010
Quote of the day:"Sometimes when life goes downhill and things get crazy, it freaks us out a little and makes us feel like we’re losing grip on something that’s really important - a part of ourselves, our lives and that scares us even more, so we try really hard to hold on tight to whatever we think we’re losing and sometimes, we hold on a little too hard."
Maybe it applies to me... for the next one month... be it good or bad... be it whether he changes or not... i will try to change myself too... to let go abit... to adjust myself to his environment... it's hard realli hard for someone who holds on so tightly for her principles... but for him... i wanna try... cos i wanna hold on to this relationship... :)
he made my day today... seems small.. but meant a big lot to me... when i kissed him goodbye tonight... when i hugged him.. i jus dun feel like letting go.. thank u dear... u pulled me back.. once again... u melted my heart... once again... ... :)
Another quote of the day:
"People get stuck in moments. Hearts break and don’t fix easy. Love is nothing easy. It is not cheap. It is the greatest thing that happens on this planet, and so it comes priced as gold. One of my best friends used to sing the words “love is war”. There is the fight for holding on. And the fight for letting go. The hardest thing I have ever experienced is the learning which and when. But I still say it’s worth it, that love is real and possible. There are things worth fighting for, and love is at the top of the list."
Thank you meiyi for sharing this webby. :D
Yxiaopei'er♥
Sunday, September 12, 2010
当同样的事情一而在，再而三的发生。。我已经失去了希望和信心。。。
当我无法分变是理由或是借口的时候，我选择。。 不相信。。
我不是一个能用一句道歉或甜言蜜语来哄的女生。。
现在不是。。 以后也不会是。。
我累了。。厌倦了。。
我似乎是在等待着一个未知。。看不到未来。。的未来。。。
当彼此以为很了解对方但其实并非是这样的时候，
是佛应该从新考虑或是放下自尊，慢下脚步，从新来过。。
Yxiaopei'er♥
Saturday, September 11, 2010
It's been a long long time since i last update my blog... hahaha... anyway it is jus meant for me myself to keep those memories... and at most for belle and mel to read my thinking..
changes in my life:
belle and i have signed up for school... kaplan - degree for business mgt... it's a new beginning for the 2 of us... it's a new chapter of our life... and we r going to go through this together... :) i m excited... and hopefully both of us will be accepted into the school...
Realization of my life:
me and mel have some disagreement recently... was the verge of serious thinking if this relationship should go on... not bcos i dun love him... but bcos.. i feel i m not the priority (i dun need to b the top priority) and the commitment is no longer there.. i know we r both trying hard... to b frank... i m still struggling to get this thinking out of my mind... main reason is that he is always late and always giving the reason tt he has to meet clients and all... i can understand this but if he is meeting me... i expect punctuality and i believe ur client has some other free time rather than jus tt time alone... i can understand for once for twice about these hiccups... but i dun wanna spend my whole life waiting... waiting for him... waiting to know when we can be back like the past.. when i can have a happy day with him without being pissed..
just like the song lyrics goes..
"你想要的，我却不能够给你我全部。 我能给的却又不是你想拥有的"
“最后的疼爱是手放开"
frankly speaking, besides this point... i think i've got myself the best boyfren in the world.. i dun praise him openly... but i know he is good... a caring guy- a guy who sincerely cares and nag, a guy who will b there when i need him, a guy who can cook for me, a guy who can tolerate my temper... a guy who can be real romantic..there's alot more...
so now my decision is to choose to look at these good points and tolerate the timing issue for the rest of this relationship OR to give him up to let him fulfil his career... i need time to think...
but definitely... if situation allows.. i hope to still have him...
sadly... not my call.. i can only wait for an answer...
Su Ling jie jie wedding:
I was the sister for one of my ex-colleague who is pretty close to me... me and 3 others sisters planned a 7 levels gate crash thing for the groom and brothers... freaking tiring... i woke up at 4am... and to get the make up up... imagine me drawing with my eyes close... hahaha... and all the way till night when the dinner ends at 11 plus... but seeing her so xin fu really makes me envy... the groom realli impressed me by how well he knows suling jiejie... when asked to taste the coffee tt suling jiejie make... he guess it correctly for all 3 tries... when blindfolded and asked to feel which is suling jie jie's hand out of the 6 hands he touched... he can actually guessed it correctly at the first try... i m truly impressed... and yes, she did.. somehow inspired me to get married.. hahaha... although being the jiemei is super tiring... but i think after this experience.. i can start to plan for belle's one... good luck to belle's future hubby.. hahahaha...
Yxiaopei'er♥
