27.09.2011: Perfect 12... Fond memories.. :)

Another week has passed... coming to the end of company's fiscal year and nearing my 24th bdae...

officially, i am still 23... a young girl indeed :p... but it will be over in a week's time. i am starting bdae celebrations on the 27th, on a daily basis all the way till 2nd oct... those who made the effort to plan and celebrate for me.. thank yall in advance... really mean alot to me... makes me realize that i m actually still wanted... yes sounds stupid... but it feels good to be remembered...

i have one more month before company's fiscal year... desperately needing more sales... but i had a few achievement this month... close shave of losing but won of projects and tenders... congratualtions xiaopei... u know you r improving... but that is not good enough... i need more more more...

3rd week of life without him, although i still pretty much have him involved in my life... he has been nice and sticking ard me... helping me in alot of things... i wouldn't say i m not touched completely, but it is not the time yet... my focus and commitment is not there... and i m not convinced to sink in once again...

met up with pornstars and feels good... kinda reluctant to go intially bcos of some reason.. which was proven right... but it turned out better than i thought it would be... good catch up with lotsa laughter... exchanging bickers and words fighting, twisting etc... awesome night... and i m really interested to try salted caramel someday.. :D

alright, that's all about my life...
good night xiaopei, good night world. :)

Busy life... meaningful life... reviewing secrets of life... it has been a month of doctors, clinics and check ups. i have been to bone specialist checking on my ankles, i have been in hospital bcos of food poisoning after i was back from Vietnam, i have been to gastric specialise and today undergone a anesthetic procedure doing a scope... horrifying... the thought of lying there so helpessness.. hopefully no more next time...

thank you melvyn for being there taking care of me... we r in a complicated status which me myself also dunno how to explain but to people out there who r so curious, we r fine and normal... not back together.. for now...

going back to work tomorrow and it is gonna be another chiong chiong chiong week.
jiayou xiaopei!!!

I bidded singapore goodbye on 5th september (mon) and said hi to singapore again on 7th september(wed)... it was a good trip... a breakaway for both me and him.. msges kept coming in like usual... less responsive from me... for a reason of cos... i hope we can both start to lead our individual life and stop being the shadow of each other life like how we used to be... as i move on... i hope you move on too...

down with food poisoning on the day i came back... all the way from vietnam... yes, i survived the flight... thank goodness.. thank you for being there... thank you for forcing me to hospital.. thank you for carrying me all the way... can i say i miss being in your arms? it feels so warm... and familiar... thank you for staying by my side all the way...thank you for taking care of me these two days... it really did touched my heart...

again, i hope to say... i hope this is not a dream... not temporarily... i know u r trying... this is part of the problem, therefore u have convinced a lil part of me... but it take alot more than this.. u know it.. we did everything a couple did over the last 2 days, but the status is not back... not till i m fully convinced... i dunno where this will lead us too... but we promised to move on and see how things go... i m not forcing it... because i dun believe in forcing... let nature takes it course...

overall... still a big thank you... :)

愛愛愛愛了幾回　也明白其中滋味
付出的從來不會等於收回
我卻還在等待著　誰能出現

傷傷傷傷了幾回　也曾經為愛憔悴
愛情裡好人總比壞人狼狽
我卻還是學不會　狠心對誰

女︰男人男人　多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真　讓我不必再心疼
男︰女人女人　我答應做個好人
我答應用我一生　來換你的快樂一生

i'll get over it... soon...

it is a weekend but it means more than any other weekends.. i made 2 majors decision in my life today...

i went to see a bone specialist and has confirmed nothing is wrong with my ankle... it felt like a big stone off my heart... thank you to the one being there for me.. spending your entire morning there waiting with me...

i ended a 2 years relationship today.. as calm as i may sound... it wasn't an easy decision, given those paths we have walked together.. but then again, i am tired and as i said, nothing more i wanna do.. it was a forced upon decision for him.. i am really sorry... but i need to get away... forgive me for my selfishness... it wasn't a harsh decision though... u know it.. we both saw it coming... i give you my blessing to find the right one and i hope to get your blessing too..

For now, i m going to set my job as priority... i will do well and i know i can do it... with all the extra things eliminated from my life, i will move forward more focused each day. everyday will be a better day... jiayou xiaopei, move on and dun turn back..

thank you isabelle tan... dunno if you will be reading this... but u really meant alot to me.. thank you for always being there... thank you for accepting me... thank you for being my best friend.. i treasure every moment.. loves and hugs...

thank you mummy for the comfortable big fatty hug... i feel so warmth being in your arms again... i know u will always be there...

to guardian angel... you mean alot to me... i know u will probably never get to see this... but deep down... u know what i mean... u have been there for me... thick and thin.. thick like toast and thin like prata... hahahahaha... ok... we know how to communicate. :)

for those out there who r extremely concern about my well being, pls rest assured that i m really well.. just need a break.. and glad that i have sort things out.. even if time turned back today, i would have done the same..

Another Friday that doesn't seems like a Friday. Not a good Friday though... it is not 13...why is my day still so bad? morning was good and normal and nothing went right after that... i trusted and defended her... and even to the last resort... have to send my boss... end up.. she acknowledge received of instructions and do otherwise.. i totally feel like being sabotaged... gosh... and then project mate... i was expecting this la... and i gave her the benefit of doubts yet she have to prove me right...

It has been a peaceful, busy, fruitful, adventurous and heart warming day..

Peaceful: nothing dramatic happened for the day. i am leading another normal day without much disturbance or drama events...

Busy: had sales call all the way in Tuas and so many quotations to do...

fruitful: gym work out... shiok!!! determine to keep fit.. all the way...

Adventurous: Pei'er attempted to drive a BMW today... from tuas back to east... i m amazed that i did it too.. pick up speed is really good but the wheels abit stiff which is known as more stable in car terms i think... and i did a not bad job in parking... thank you shifu...

heartwarming: prata with my childhood frens... yes, they are always the ones making me feel so homely as if back to the simple time.. simplicity is the best... not requiring anything expensive, not anything complicated... just us and the prata shop...

A fren analysed to me today about the diff about a job and a career. it suddenly occurs to me that to me... my job now is my career. and also make me understand why so many people do not understand why i worked this why... asking me questions like "why are you always so busy?", " it is just a job, why work so hard?" and no... this is more than a job... it involves challenges, ownership and responsibility... probably the only person who has the same thinking as me is isabelle. this fren explained to me that to her, her job is just a job, she doesnt sell herself to the company... and i know many thinks that i do.. and in fact... i kinda really do.. i enjoy what i m doing... so much to learn and i m taking myself to a new challenge and overcoming new obstacles everyday... this is my life... and this is what life should be... it is precious and not to be wasted away... find the focus and concentrate on it... eliminate the unwanted of life and here it goes... focus and prioritise!!! and yes, i m ready to chiong... take me away... :)

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