Wednesday, October 31, 2007
when emotions take over you.. when surrounding doesnt fit what you want.. i dun believe in making scenes.. neither do i entertain.. fake appearance everywhere.. how scary is it when u dun even understand the person standing beside u? even tt person on surface appears to be the best fren on the world ever.. how to differentiate between fake and real? jus like how u spot branded and fake branded stuff? it's far more tougher than what u tink it is.. no matter how firm a pole is.. it can be split apart be force.. let alone hearts and minds..whenever i tried to open up.. i m scare.. i m scare tt someone betray me.. i m scare cos there's no real human ard.. the fear.. the frustration.. the distance.. the MIND GAME... when there is so much to say yet so stuck.. this SUCKS.. BIG TIME.. jus like i sucks.. totally.. from top to head..Illusion can never be real.. Miracles can never turn into facts.. jus like a human cant live life twice..
Yxiaopei'er♥
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Nightmare week just past.. wishing for a better week coming to me.. i need time to breathe when i m at work too.. oooOOOMG!!! stop all the disputing of this and that.. jus shut up.. boooOOO!!!things have rather been calmed down oreadi.. the sad moments and all had past.. or rather immuned.. i came to a conclusion tt i jus dun mean anything.. i m sure bout this.. if u lost someone so dearly to u.. something would have been done.. instead.. nothing has been done.. it shows.. totally.. true.. i m still waiting for miracle.. knowing tt it is not going to come.. jtterbug concert which has jus passed is pretty cool.. 10 dancers presenting 15 items.. some self choreography.. much effort has been put in.. i can feel it..although their timing got big prob.. but yea.. besides tt.. everything was pretty cool.. An opportunity meeting up with Dan too.. raking up past issues and talk and everything has been so fun.. LOVE IT!!! he told me alot of things... he told me thngs like guys can have dancers as gf while girls cant afford to have dancers as bf.. of cos there's a reason behind it.. but yea.. it's too long to explain.. figure it out urself.. bwaha!!!
Yxiaopei'er♥
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
When works becomes a routine..
When there is something leaving behind waiting for tomolo to finish up..
When life becomes immune to all emotions..
When laughter becomes fake but yet tears still so real..
When day comes and night falls..
When another day declared itself ends the moment u r turning in..
When so many uncertains ahead right smacked in ur face..
A dozen of non ending whens with a dozen of blurified future right ahead..
Quote of the day:
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.
Yxiaopei'er♥
Sunday, October 14, 2007
A week past after tt incident... I m picking myself up slowly.. and pretty fine at recovering.. the recovery speed is pretty fast.. not say i got over him... no.. i still love him.. but choose to be more cheerful.. i m glad to frens who have been ard.. talking.. consoling me and stuffs.. i appreciate.. belle...daniel.. joan.. ahlee...weilin...MY FAV SIS and my BEST MOMMY... has been so supportive.. thanks everyone.. to my sis who will come and spot check my blog.. wanna tell u.. i know we always love disturbing each other.. but being by my side.. u really made me recover so fast.. loves to u...fri was a great shopping day with weilin(company's sister.. cos ppl keep saying we look very similar).. and i bought so much stuffs.. spent almost a hundred bucks.. or mayb more than tt.. haha,..btu so cool.. clothes tt i can wear to office and all.. and yea... sat was a slacking at home day with sis.. and joan came over my house for steam boat.. woolala.. daddy bought CRABS.. omg omg omg.. and joan dyed my hair dark purplish for me.. not the havoc kind..u know those kinda purple u can c under the sunlight.. pretty cool.. and yea sun was another shopping day with joan..coming week.. i promised myself to make it another beautiful week.. i miss yongliang.. reallly need to meet him soon.. i missed him playing piano for me.. the nice and smooth songs.. his innocence and craps.. yeeehhhaaaaa!!!! frens frens and great frens.. bwaha!!!!the song tt describes:"
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Yxiaopei'er♥
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I miss him... alot... alot alot.. alot alot alot.. I still cant let go...Neither did he initiate to contact me.. *cries*... every msg or call that came in.. i was so hoping it was him.. but apparently.. none.. was from him..-xiaopei'er-
Yxiaopei'er♥
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Beautiful dreams need to be ended.. In jus a moment.. it will snapped and there it goes.. everything back to reality.. it may be hard to believe but yet so true.. tt reality is always much more real then dreams.. how many can always in beautiful dreams?i once believe.. once had faith.. once had hope for future.. between us.. yet this relationship is so fragile.. it became rotten over time.. jus like how u keep a fruit for too long.. the condition of it worsen day by day from time to time.. if u manage to salvage it in time.. u might still be able to eat the fruit.. if not.. you'll jus have to dump it.. into a bin.. and make it disappear forever...there no way u can pick up a broken relationship.. jus like u cant eat a rotten fruit..when i need u so much to understand me.. have u put in the slightest effort.. mayb u did try.. but ur approach forever doesnt seem to reach me.. u might love me.. but u do not know how to spare a thought for me.. u might be the best guy in the world ever.. but u cant be my good bf.. y... i really wish.. u can b special to me.. but i feel like a toy.. only to b touched when u r free.. when u feel like playing with me.. m i tt to u? the slightest thing from u can make my day.. but u doesnt seem to care.. not even once do i feel tt u try to coax me before.. this is how disappointed i m...my world.. so dark...i tout i was strong enuff not to fall.. but stil... i fell.. so hard tt i almost cant pick myself up..time is what i need.. to recover.. to stand up again.. to b independent again.. and no more love.. even the most handsome guy on earth now will look like a freak to me..
Yxiaopei'er♥
