Tuesday, September 05, 2006
the intended purpose of calling is to hear ur voice.. to have a nice talk with u.. before getting down with all the dance stuffs.. and it turned out ugly.. to the extent of putting an end to everything.. somehow i still feel the great differences between us.. our thinking.. and our willingness to compromise.. there are thinkings tt cant b solved.. i admit tt.. so yah.. mayb ending it is the best choice?i dunno what i want.. when questions starts to come in.. the pressure is on.. and i cant control such things.. can i? somehow this time i dun feel sad.. feel abit relieved.. i cant believe tt's happening to me.. i have always tout tt the day i break with him.. was gonna be the day of like the end of the world.. but it seems like no.. it isnt.. or m i running away from reality? i'm feel so immune to all feelings now.. i dun feel sad.. dun feel happy.. no nothing... jus feel like sitting down and stone..the first person i told was liang.. he happen to talk to me online like right after i hang up.. and he was stil asking in a kidding manner.. saying.. u and him tog.. then neglect me oreadi lo.. and i feel that he shld know.. so yah.. i talked to cutlet and xingan too.. cos i reali feel like complaining.. they have been great.. reali.. and no doubt my xingan is reali sweet.. haha.. muacks to her.. and thanks cutlet.. cutlet said tt all rabbits are stubborn.. how true is tt? cutlet was so right about me.. she say from what she know of me.. she feels tt i m someone hu tink using my mind not my heart.. i tend to think rationally rather than emotionally.. i remember ally's nick once put.. gals tend to tink emotionally rather than rationally.. but to me.. it seem to be opposite?
for the rest of my days.. i shall stil continue to spend it meaningfully.. having whole day of dance tomolo.. gonna sweat it out (our slogan) and use dance to make myself happy.. i shall smile.. shall go crazy the whole day tomolo.. i believe i can..
Yxiaopei'er♥
