Thursday, October 12, 2006
dance day.. i did STUNTS again today.. usual.. first attempt was a nice and beautiful one.. manage to stay there for my hand stand.. and second time i did.. i flipped over.. and because i panic.. i LET GO of my hand.. and i LANDED on my BACK.. with a super loud bang tt shocked everyone in the dance studio..farking pain.. i can feel all my internal organ had the jerk the moment i fell.. i was so scare tt i will vomit out blood man.. but i did not.. phew..ryan was listening to his ipod.. when i fell and he suddenly stopped and stare blank at me.. omfg.. i didnt reali feel e pain until evening.. if those hu went out with me do realise.. i cant stand straight.. cos my back hurts..at night day out with joan eric-chia yongliang eeling(liang's gf) bran and sally.. to ktv.. it jus wasnt the right time.. cos from the point i go in.. i start receiving lotsa call.. until joan was quite irritated with me.. and ask me.. can i jus shut me phone and settle everything tomolo? but yah.. there are impt things tt needs to b settled and COMMUNICATION is very impt esp when a group comes tog and plan something.. wasnt reali in e right mood today.. i was moody for the whole day.. stoning daydreaming.. didnt speak a word to bran at ALL for the entire night..seeing him = MEMORIES flowing back.. flooding my mind.. i realli realli misses him.. when i went home.. i cried.. because of alot of things.. my ankle is in pain.. my back is in pain.. under stress and tolerating UNREASONABLE scolding by some farking bimbo.. and frens ard me are driving me CRAZY.. can i have no frens at all? jus leave me to b a loner? i feel so SCARE talking to anyone now.. hu can i trust.. i realli miss him.. i used to b able to pour out everything and he will jus listen.. but now.. everything is like within me.. EXPLODING anytime.. after concert.. i hope i will b a happier xiaopei... ENDURANCE.. and those hu i oreadi CONSIDERED out of my life.. pls jus leave forever and DUN COME BACK.. if u all cant b bothered to ask or care.. neither do i.. (belle will understand).. it all lies in ur ATTITUDE.. "Bao -er is damn secretly hyper happy today...AND I KNOW Y!!! " WAHAHAHAHAH (quoted from isabelle)going off.. i need to lie down and rest.. ankle going to fall apart like anytime.. and i'm worried bout my back.. it's reali damn pain.. i cant sit straight.. cant bend and all.. every position activates the pain.. can someone jus do me a favour by DESTROYING the whole of me?
Yxiaopei'er♥
