Monday, October 09, 2006
while waiting for tt damn big folder to load.. here i m.. back to blogging to keep myself awake.. it is now 215am...haha.. and while waiting.. read alot of blogs.. and found out.. those frens hu i have neglected due to my commitments of dance.. have still been so caring and thoughtful.. for the whole hols.. i didnt contact any poly frens except bao'er cos of imf.. and i tout they will forget me.. cos they had so many private outings which no one bother to ask me.. they dun wan me le.. but anywae.. i'm busy also la.. i quite sad of being neglected and throw aside until i read jas kee blog.. she remember my bdae.. and one special post to wish me happy bdae.. and yea.. tears rolled down.. and continued reading other blogs.. and realise hui also remember my bdae.. omg.. and i m crying oreadi.. she even wrote tt i m a nanny tt watch her grow up from pri to sec to poly.. omg.. i reali didnt realise me and this grp of frens have been thru so much.. love u hui.. but hate u for making me cry.. me and xian and hui and ping(xingan) have known each other since primary school.. got into same sec.. got into same click of frens.. and till now.. and to the future.. thru xingan's blog.. i realise she has been quite sad and unhappy.. i feel so guilty not being there for her.. too committed to my dance things.. neglect too many ppl.. even my best poly fren liang.. who have been trying means and ways to ask me out.. but i jus cant spare the time.. i feel guilty.. xingan.. sorry to u.. for not being there when u needed me.. i will reflect and shall love u even more k.. although have been meeting up with u quite often now.. but yet didnt realise u r unhappy.. slaps myself..___________________________
Yxiaopei'er♥