Tuesday, January 02, 2007
abit late for updates.. but yah.. i believe every year should have a conclusion..
The year 2006 was a great one.. realli.. i thanks everyone who made my 2006 a good one.. new frens and old frens.. those who came and left.. everyone...
Starting of the year.. i became one of the main committee for dance ensemble.. where all the responsibilites and stuffs came my way.. it has trained me to b more independent.. i've learned alot in the main comm.. and i thank everyone who made me who i m.. i thank everyone of those who gave me chances.. i made my way through and b who i m today.. cos of u guys.. i love TPDE.. in this year of 2007.. i m leaving the main committee.. passing down to the next batch.. i hope whoever is taking over do a good job.. i'm not saying i have been doing a good job.. i m not.. cos i believe i could have done better.. and i hope the team will maintain and will not fall.. qiao told me yest.. she sees the team growing from uncle toby batch of committee to our batch of committee.. i suddenly feel the happiness.. effort put in has been seen.. improvements have been made.. and everyone is realising it.. although some might not agree and still feels tt the team is very chak chak.. but i will say.. things cant be built up overnight..
close frens came about.. isabelle.. jonathan.. YL.. Chia.. so on and so on.. esp belle.. i realli treasure u alot as a fren.. u have been great.. been with me during my ups and down.. loads of love to u..i'm realli so glad tt u came for my concert.. cos apparently onli u and jon and ur INTSC ppl made the effort down.. my sec sch buddies.. xingan.. elaine.. chuxian.. jiahui.. thanks for always accomodating to my schedule and making the effort to stay in touch with me.. u all r like my childhood frens till now.. so like yah.. dance frens.. joan.. loren.. meiqi.. carryn.. roy.. times have been fun with u all ard.. picnic.. parties.. gathering.. full of ideas and laughter involved.. juniors like unice.. jean.. rinna. ahlee.. foong'er.. pris.. mel.. py.. raaz..u guys spiced up my life too.. hanging out with u all has always been fun.. esp the funksoul ppl.. we went through so much tog..
TPDE Dance concert.. SWEAT IT OUT.. it has been another memorable concert with the dance team.. tears and laughter.. and every process that we went through tog.. from we dunno one another until all came tog and went out shopping and stuffs.. times when we learning breakdance.. falling here and there.. like some bounceable idiots.. sam babe.. always in her gymnast and chinese dance world.. entertaining us.. gucci always calling me jiejie.. jean also adressing me as siao eh.. arrrgghhh.. so much and so much memories flowing back.. and i recalled crying after the concert cos i missed the process too much.. some of us have grown and stayed closer with the dance team.. some of us have drifted apart.. some have even left with no news at all.. memories and memories.. the final day of the concert.. a great one.. we did our very best.. i guess.. and yea.. the meaningful sunflower with a thousand meanings in it.. the happy bdae choreo.. which in return made me had a happy bdae wave from the gals on my bdae.. realli miss tt.. m i gonna have another Happy Bdae wave next year? mayb by tt time u all oreadi wash me off from ur memories.. haha..
love life.. 2 boyfrens in a year.. experiences.. happy times and sad times and angry times.. clashes in views.. character disagreements and stuffs.. so much and so much.. hoping tt i have found my right one.. someone tt can click and all.. i believe everyone will find the right one as long as they have patience.. how right is right.. haha.. i have no idea.. we have to figure it out ourselves.. seeing couples get tog.. still tog or break.. feel the happiness and sadness for them.. pris and justin.. unice and pok.. unice and wayne.. YL and eeling.. eric chia and cynthia.. me and bran.. me and xyz.. lotsa and lotsa stuffs.. in e year to come.. of cos.. i hope to stay with xyz.. :) he taught me alot of things.. and motivated me and alot alot more bout him.. and yes.. i m so glad he clicks with my frens too.. haha.. with the cups and all.. oops.. haha..
school life.. struggling like mad pigs in major proj.. but have learnt alot through it.. the most interesting part is to analyse how communicate with ng soon aik.. accepting his interesting habits like nose digging sesson.. armpit scratching sessions and all.. and yes.. i m so proud of myself i manage to live through all tt nonsense for all a year.. like damn suay la.. haiyo..haha.. www.soonaik.com.. ppl pls visit if u r free.. this website realli does exist ok.. wahaha.. MP lab frens have been great.. Seah.. Kee.. Ally.. Xinhui.. Riki.. ZheQian.. and not forgetting my major proj buddies.. vivian aka nehmo.. and suriani.. i'm missing them like hell lots.. imagine like staying till late night everyday in school with them..till now like prac no contact.. vivian still sometimes in contact i know.. but yah.. still feel drifted apart.. and my initial poly frens.. whom i assume to b one only group of poly frens.. apparently.. disappeared from my life.. and i guess.. they dun even remember me at all.. tt's how i feel.. from the past where u gals used to bother to even tag or say hi in msn.. till now.. hu remembers my existence? onli belle? but yah.. if u gals choose to stay away.. i accept the fact and i will go on with my life... but i reali thanks ally kee seah xinhui and isabelle.. for always nagging at me to ask me to study hard.. without this naggings.. it's either i m oreadi in the phase of year 5 or oreadi out of poly.. i appreciate the effort of u gals..
so much and so much.. the thing i miss most is still dance.. it grew from a play play kinda thing.. to a passion.. to where my family grows.. where i c the dance team grow.. to alot alot of stuffs.. alot alot of processes went through.. i dunno how to express myself.. but i'm realli realli glad to have this dance team.. times and again.. i promised the funksoul gals.. i will not cry cos i miss the concert and the processes being with them too much.. but i admit.. on and off.. emotions still attacked me.. sometimes tears will jus dropped..
in this year to come.. some have entered the dancework competition team with me..while some did not.. but in any case.. let's still stay tog as frens.. jean pris and ahlee.. we promised to work hard and fight our way through.. to unice foong'er rinna.. u gals will still b my babes.. foong'er.. still waiting for ur HCG.. haha.. and yes.. i forgot to mention bout nicole.. she is sweet too.. but i dun get to talk to her often.. but now we r in the same dancework team.. hope more chances.. puting with nicole.. qiao.. pris and jean aka ah siao have been fun.. but realli.. i hope those in the dancework team spend a bit more effort to contribute and not sit there.. waiting for a few of us to settle.. how many of u actually bothers to make the effort.. when a day has been decided to find knee guards.. ended up everyone say cannot.. have plans oreadi.. i forgot bout it.. and left onli few of us.. and what.. we r suppose to get it for u all? is this our job? like tt's e best effort u all can show? and this is call good attitude? like fark.. like my foot.. i'm seriously farking irritated by this.. not voicing out doesnt mean problems dun exist.. sometimes it is jus waiting for u all to reflect and make the change urself.. if u need ppl to pin point at u and tell u.. this is ur mistake.. u shouldnt this and that.. all i can say is.. u r RETARD.. i'm gonna explode soon.. i have so much things to say bout this team.. everyone is jus so reliant.. lateness and stuffs.. does this look like chalet? do u all feel urgency? do u feel the right attitude? and talking bout costumes.. how many realli actually bother to help ask ard for contacts of tailors? shoot me back if i m wrong.. all u all know is to ask for conclusion.. "so how's shopping today? u all manage to fidn the knee guards? " like y should u care when u dun even make the effort.. pure spoon-feeding.. to me.. all these are nonsense.. mayb i did too much for u all in e past.. apparently.. tt's what roy and some other commented.. and tt's y u all find me too slack in communicating with u all.. too soft with u all and all.. pls dun attempt to climb over me.. i m human..i have limits.. i will explode someday and the day is coming near..
i have no idea y i started voicing all my unhappiness here.. but yah.. i feel better.. and i m hoping tt everyone in D'verse sees this.. reflect and wake up..
ok.. tt's all i have to say for year 2006 i tink.. 2007 will be another great year ahead.. a major change for me.. stepping out into working society.. :)
Yxiaopei'er♥
