Monday, September 07, 2009
much as i would like to start off with a good week... things doesnt seems to fall in place.. or rather.. the way i wan it to be...
too much effort on others' thinking.. too much effort on compromising to what ppl expect of me.. too much effort on trying to accomodate to everyone's feeling, needs and expectations... too much of everything...
too lil effort spend on my own thinking... too lil effort spent on how i feel or how i wanna feel.. and like beautrice says.. too lil "alone time" for myself... which is so true... when was the last time i was left alone to sort out my thinking? beau also say i should sit down and re-organise my schedule.. my whole life schedule... i tink i should too... i feel like putting down everything ard me and tink tink tink.. tink hard about what went wrong.. what i wan... what is needed and not needed in my life... i need to tok to the sea.. listen to the gentle waves...
i told geraldine bout all my problems.. my concerns.. my stress.. my everything.. she replied me... "based on the xiaopei i know.. she can overcome everything"... yes i know i can.. but i m very very tired...
everytime when i m on the verge of exploding.. belle and mel is always there to calm the waves down... i will say belle understands it better.. but i know mel is putting in his best effort (by doing silly things that makes me roll my eyes)... *roll eyes is a form of respect* hahahahaha...
i will be well and up again.. back to the crazy gal tt i m.. but jus when.... time time time is needed.. needed badly...
i wan to tok to the sea...
Yxiaopei'er♥
