Saturday, November 14, 2009
being paranoid... shivering hands when stress .. start panicking over every lil thing... losing appetite for lunch... tt's what i m experiencing now... i stil love my job though.. jus tt i reali feel i need more time.. more hands.. more fingers....RECITAL... is coming... i feel it. and i reali wanna chiong for dance..not jus for recital but for japan trip too.. hoping to become a better dancer.. tt day when meiyi commented tt she feels tt i have been stagnant for too long.. my whole heart sank... i dun wanna be like this.. i wanna improve tremedously.. i wanna reach the next level.. and now.. recital is coming.. it's not the time to be lazy.. i keep reminding myself not to be lazy.. but given my natural-born lazy swiny character.. there's time tt i bound to be lazy and feel nua (i know mel is laughing with agreement.. cos i m admitting tt i m swine and i m lazy)....i m trying.. to be better in every aspect... trying to be a better daughter by spending more time with family... trying to be a better girlfren cos i know i m too far from good... trying to be a nicer fren by remembering my frens and remembering to meet up with them once a while.. esp belle.. thousands of apologies to her cos i know i have been neglecting her big time... *TO WANT TO BE WHAT ONE CAN BE IS THE PURPOSE OF LIFE*- Cynthia Ozickto work towards a better tomolo.. a better future.. a better life...
Yxiaopei'er♥
