Monday, June 28, 2010
The past few weeks has been so happening...
A good news... Xiaopei got her driving license... she's gonna be a new driver on the road now... Congrats to her.. Boss says he will be celebrating for me during the Jakarta trip... i'm waiting... hahahaha... he hinted me about doing sales again... smart me know what's going on... he told me today tt he wanted to get me a new phone... and print my namecard within this week.. i managed to stop him in time... telling him we will do an evaluation after the trip... no doubt i m having tt interest again (just a bit only).... but there's so much consideration... and one of them is you... i know u wont have alot of time for me anymore, not like the past... i totally understand and trying my best to accomodate... bcos i believe either one party has to sacrifice.. and if i take this up.. it's not gonna get us anywhere... but at the same time... i am trying hard to keep myself busy.. so that i dun feel empty... and i expect u to understand this...
i am constantly reminding myself of your maggie mee theory... to the extend of using it as my MSN nick... i m trying to hold on to the faith even if it's only one strand of maggie mee left.. to be frank... my faith is not tt strong yet... but i dun wanna give up... esp after tt big fight... i feel good after all the thrash out... i realli do not wan us to end liddat... but i feel.. we drifted apart... i guess ur patience for me is up ... i can feel it... likewise... my expectation is becoming higher... we are both trying.. trying to make things work... trying to improve situations... trying to create a future... it's nvr easy and it will nvr be... alot of times when i feel like giving up... u pulled me back... i thank you for that... seriously... u made me believe that a relationship can work this far... u taught me how to put down the hatred for yongzhi... which i did... but by toking to him now.. not bcos i have forgiven him.. but bcos i respect the fact that he is ur fren...
and ppl... stop asking about yongzhi... i have moved on... doesnt matter how he treated me in the past... dun bring up that hatred... i realli wanna let it fade.. i was a kid then... so was he... our mentality and personality weren't strong enuff to hold things together... but now.. i m a grown up... i dunno if he has grown up since then but in any case... good luck to him if he hasn't... i'm glad i have mel now... bcos he is my pillar of support...
XiaoPei and one strand of Maggie Mee. Loves. :)
Yxiaopei'er♥
