Saturday, September 11, 2010
It's been a long long time since i last update my blog... hahaha... anyway it is jus meant for me myself to keep those memories... and at most for belle and mel to read my thinking..
changes in my life:
belle and i have signed up for school... kaplan - degree for business mgt... it's a new beginning for the 2 of us... it's a new chapter of our life... and we r going to go through this together... :) i m excited... and hopefully both of us will be accepted into the school...
Realization of my life:
me and mel have some disagreement recently... was the verge of serious thinking if this relationship should go on... not bcos i dun love him... but bcos.. i feel i m not the priority (i dun need to b the top priority) and the commitment is no longer there.. i know we r both trying hard... to b frank... i m still struggling to get this thinking out of my mind... main reason is that he is always late and always giving the reason tt he has to meet clients and all... i can understand this but if he is meeting me... i expect punctuality and i believe ur client has some other free time rather than jus tt time alone... i can understand for once for twice about these hiccups... but i dun wanna spend my whole life waiting... waiting for him... waiting to know when we can be back like the past.. when i can have a happy day with him without being pissed..
just like the song lyrics goes..
"你想要的，我却不能够给你我全部。 我能给的却又不是你想拥有的"
“最后的疼爱是手放开"
frankly speaking, besides this point... i think i've got myself the best boyfren in the world.. i dun praise him openly... but i know he is good... a caring guy- a guy who sincerely cares and nag, a guy who will b there when i need him, a guy who can cook for me, a guy who can tolerate my temper... a guy who can be real romantic..there's alot more...
so now my decision is to choose to look at these good points and tolerate the timing issue for the rest of this relationship OR to give him up to let him fulfil his career... i need time to think...
but definitely... if situation allows.. i hope to still have him...
sadly... not my call.. i can only wait for an answer...
Su Ling jie jie wedding:
I was the sister for one of my ex-colleague who is pretty close to me... me and 3 others sisters planned a 7 levels gate crash thing for the groom and brothers... freaking tiring... i woke up at 4am... and to get the make up up... imagine me drawing with my eyes close... hahaha... and all the way till night when the dinner ends at 11 plus... but seeing her so xin fu really makes me envy... the groom realli impressed me by how well he knows suling jiejie... when asked to taste the coffee tt suling jiejie make... he guess it correctly for all 3 tries... when blindfolded and asked to feel which is suling jie jie's hand out of the 6 hands he touched... he can actually guessed it correctly at the first try... i m truly impressed... and yes, she did.. somehow inspired me to get married.. hahaha... although being the jiemei is super tiring... but i think after this experience.. i can start to plan for belle's one... good luck to belle's future hubby.. hahahaha...
Yxiaopei'er♥
